I hate wagons

I've come to realize that one of my biggest problems is motivation, and my brain. We'll say my brain in a very general manner. I'm not organized in my day to day life, when I have a work project that is fairly well defined with boundaries, I'm very motivated and focused, but take away that pressure and i fall apart, and start to procrastinate. I let things slip, and then, it too far gone to regain the momentum that I had. Once this happens it's too easy to continue letting it slip until any progress that I'd made is lost.

This is true of most facets of my life, from keeping up on my finances, to sticking to my workout plan, and proper use of my free time.

This past year was particularly bad, in the I went into a depression/anxiety, and also had surgery. When the anxiety hit, I was unable to think clearly, couldn't eat and couldn't function properly. This was pretty scary for me, since I'm used to being in control, even if the control that I have is to decide to do nothing. I did go see my doctor to get some help, and in doing so, I realized a few things:

1. there is only so much stress you can deal with;
2. you need healthy outlets;
3. I need to work smarter.

Now in June I also had surgery, while it wasn't major, it was needed, so that I could stay in my current position, as I had compartment syndrome, which isn't fun at all and is often mistaken for shin splints.

Now the anxiety hit me so hard, because I wasn't sleeping, and that will make your stress levels go up even if you have nothing to be stressed about. So I got some exercises that for me helped a very little bit, but enough to allow me to function and stay sane. But now, over the past few weeks I've been looking into ways to keep myself more organized, and in my search I've finally started to look into that GTD (Getting Things Done by David Allen) stuff I've been hearing about for ages. This system makes sense to me, off load from your brain everything, dump it into a system so that you can deal with it effectively. It's got steps, and processes, tips and tricks, and most of all flexibility, all things that resonate well with my inner geek.... and to a degree my outer geek. So now, I've listen to some of the material, started reading teh book, and starting to put this stuff into practice, I have a good feeling about this.

So now I'm going to not only be writing about my physical well being, but also my mind in this blog. I'll be setting out some new goals, and starting the process to improving myself in all aspects.

So where's the wagon, i need to get back on.

I'm a failure

Well, I haven't been able to stay on the health wagon at all. I was lazy all winter and am now paying for it. Luckily I'm teaching at Ceremonial Guard this summer, and teaching a Soldier's Qualification at the same time. This should help me get back on the wagon.

I've started working out again, been going 2-3 times a week, and doing a lot more walking over all. Now, to ramp it up a bit, and watch what I eat, not that easy eating in a cafeteria all the time, but we'll see what I can do.

Small steps....

Fell waaayyy off the wagon

The past couple of months got pretty crazy. Ben traveling more than I've been home, and when I'm on the road, I really don't feel like working out, and eating restaurants all the time makes it really hard to eat well.

Now, I NEED TO GET BACK ON THE WAGON! No questions asked.

I need a step, by step plan that isn't too hard to follow with while on the road.

Be back tomorrow, with a little more detail.

Another day of soreness

Second day after my first workout in the gym, and I am definitely more sore today than I was yesterday, even so, today was a good day. I managed 10 626 paces, and a full lower body workout, and even ran 4.8kms in 20 min, not quite the 5km that I wanted. At physio today, did more ultrasound and the electric current through my foot. Felt good, until I did that run.

Again made it through the day, with no French Fries and I had breakfast. Had a bowl of Two Scoops for breakfast and a full lunch with sandwich, salad and yogurt, for supper I went out to eat at East Side Mario's, had linguini chicken amatriciana. It was good.

So nothing much else to say right now. Later.

Day one of being sore

While my workout yesterday felt great, I am defiantly pretty sore, and I know tomorrow is going to be worse. Only a few days of this soreness and it will be all good. Today I got fitted for my orthotics and tomorrow I go to physio. My foot has been really hurting the past couple of days, hopefully this will all start helping.

Today, I did 8206 paces, and 50 minutes at the driving range, the soreness from the workout yesterday, really messed with my swing. Really funny thing, I went to my normal driving range, and they were out of balls! So I went to another place just a few kms up the road, the place cost 1$ more per bucket, but it is a nicer range, so I don't know which one I will be using in the future, but its always good to have a few options.

Been having pretty standard meals, and haven't broken my goals yet, although it has been tough, that is by far the hardest part, I love French fries and eating breakfast is tough but I do feel better when I do. So for now, I'll be keeping it up.

Peace out.

Why did I stop working out again?

Today was a good day.

I've forgotten how much I enjoy going to the gym at the end of a long day. Why exactly did I stop going again? I can't really remember. But I know it's been 4 months since I've been to the gym, as my workout journal attested to when I opened it up to record today's workout. Right now, I'm following the Bill Philip's Body for Life workout program, it's one that I know, and that has worked for me in the past, and its fast, each of the 2 workouts only take 40 - 50 minutes to complete. So there isn't very much wasted time in the gym. When I got tot he gym, I was going to do a 5-10 minute warm up on the treadmill, which turned into a 20 minute run, over which I covered 2.3 miles, or 3.6km. Which isn't that bad considering the last time I ran, I could barely muster more than a brisk walk, and I was walking the first 3 minutes to warm up. I fear that my foot is going to rebel tomorrow.... Oh well...It felt good doing it! Anyways, tomorrow, I have my appointment to get some custom orthotics fitted. Even with a 20 minute run in there, my pedometer only read 9233 paces at the end of the day :( I was hoping for more. To offset my terrible weekend.

And in the food category, I'm still doing well, haven't skipped a breakfast yet, and still no French fries!!! Let me tell you, giving up the French fries, I think I'm starting to understand how someone that gives up smoking feels!

I'm starting to put together my goals for the next few weeks, lets see what interesting torture I can come up with.

Death to Allergies

I woke up Saturday morning, with the worst case of allergies ever! Sinus completely blocked, eyes watering, and a migrane. I stayed in bed almost all day, barely ate and didn't move. I just felt like junk all Saturday and Sunday, I got nothing done of any use, and didn't get any activity done. Normal strength Reactine just wasn't cutting it, the extra strength worked better, and the benadryl allergy and sinus, worked a lot better, and let me sleep, and at least open my eyes. The one good thing about the allergies, is that I still ate fairly well, not too much and still no french fries.

Hopefully tomorrow I'll feel good enough to be able to get something productive done.